2023
Saturday, July 22, 2023 @ 3:21:00 PM | 0 notes

 Assalamualaikum and hello.


Wow it has been a really long time isn't it? Last post was 2-3 years ago when I was 23 years old and now I'm entering 27 years old era. And the Covid19 is still there but we're kinda live with it, more like those virus are just like other virus such as dengue virus such things. So we're no longer restricted to quarantine and mask on everythime, but yeah 3 freaking years with mask on, it is really awkward to not be with it. I'm still wearing it to office and public transport. And yeah I'm currently an office lady hehe to be exact I'm RO at my intern company. Hahahahahahaha yeah still in that company, actually during my last post I said that I was making a part time there, right? About 1 month after that post, I got em not fired but more to my service was end (grammatically error isnt it). And then on 2021, I got part time at 2 courier company. You know the parcel warehouse, where the parcel is scanned such thing. I became part timer there for 5 months, before I was again recruited by my supervisor during intern. And now I'm her colleagues and her co-worker/team member in a project. This is actually ridiculous, I'm now the same level as my supervisor, I mean we're the same gred RO. But no worries, I still learning from her. 


Okay move on, I actually want to talk about love life. Hahahahahahaha yeah no, I'm still single. It has been like 11 years I think with no relationship. But I want to get married at 28 years old. So how? Okay but I've story. Apparently, my colleague got crush on me and I never expected him to be. I mean I know him since during my internship, he's already there. With no single hint, last month during office hour actually I already waiting time to go home lah. I sat at the meeting table at the front office, he suddenly came to me said he want to confess something but then he flustered I think he went back to his desk. And I was like what are you want to talk about while laughing (not that kind of mocking, more like whats wrong laughing lol idk how to explain this). Then otw home, I talk about this Wan (apparently we're working and carpool together) and *dudum* she said that she knew from other colleague that the guy actually had crush on me. I was like no way he didn't show any sign, and I was like really sloppy (is it a good word to say selekeh in english, idk) girl at the office. I mean I didn't wearing any makeup at work and idk how to do a job sometimes. How on earth, he likes me. I didn't even do something to attract people to be exact reason why I was shocked when I got to know that he likes me. So during the whole weeks, I was really on alert lah to see if he make a move on me but lol nothing happened. Suddenly during weekend, I got a text from him saying that he likes me and wondering if I've boyfriend. But since I already knew this is coming, I'm not that flustered (thank god). But *dudum* I've talked about this to my mum, apparently my mum against this relationship because we're in the same office so the chance to get kick out from the office is high and we're not in the same level of education. More to said we're not that sekufu. But me being a good me, I'm not rejecting him directly because I know he's really a good guy. Where you can get a good guy like him. Yeah I know I should just accepted him but after like a month, I just saw that I'm actually the girl version of him. We're apparently the same, the personality is the same. We're both shy and don't know how to interact with other. So I can conclude that we'rent match, like we will not have some sparks that need to lights up our life together in the future. I mean like we can't move ourselves forward if we're together. That's really sad when you finally got someone had crush on you but you can't even accept him. I'm so sorry to him if right now I make him think that he got the chance but in reality I will crush his chance. I'm so sorry. Can my real jodoh find me quickly?


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